Sigh.. Sometimes.. I really don't get what my parents wants. Well.. I actually do.. but.. they're demanding too much. Especially my mum.. It makes me totally hurt. I seriously don't like being at home. It's more than a jail than home. No.. I'd rather be in jail than being at home. Living at home seriously sucks. My mum would nag non-stop at me. Saying all the bad things about me, making me feel fustrated. I'll always try my best not to fight back and keep quiet as if nothing happened, so that I wouldn't hurt her. Well..I helped out during house work, but i knew I didn't manage to do as well as my bro, but I put in effort at least.. They'd just say everything good about my bro and say everything bad about me. What is this?.. Seriously, after they get to learn more about buddhism, my life, instead of getting better; seeing them acting more kindly, they went the other way round.. they scold me.. called me 没用, 不会做人, or something like that despite I helped them in their household work. Seriously, I don't sense the love I had at home anymore. I'd rather them not learning any buddhism things, it made them worst. That's y.. these days I'm very eager to go out, hang out with my friends. At least I sense quietness(no scoldings,no discriminations), peace, and have fun with my friends. I know that after that(next week), I'll be busy at work. There'll be lots of scolding and stuffs. How I wished school would start ealier. Sigh.. Now I'm seriously hurt. I just wish to get out of here. I just wish that I could just disperse and dissapear into thin air. I don't feel like living any longer. What a life.. Sigh..

An Empty heart..
just wished to be loved..

(I'll smile when I have an accident. I'll be glad.)

Hi! Well.. did you guys enjoyed you CNY? Now, I'ma share about my CNY.

On the 1st day of new year, we ate steam boat for lunch! (Well, I'm repeating this cos I didn't said this I detail during my last post. I was upset due to the cause of a crazy quarrel previously.) The first time we went there, there were lots of preparation to do. We arranged the bowl as if our relative were going to dine at our 'house hold restruant'. -.-" Well.. after we finish preparing our ingredients for our 'hot pot'.. our 'thailand aunt' came. ...(something happened: @ prev post).. thn they went off. And we started our lunch. For us teens, we sat around the smaller table, whereas, for adults, hey sat another table seperately. On the teen's table, it's DEAD quiet. We even cared if our spoon or chopsticks would make a loud noise.(It's pin drop scilence.) I did drank a little wine. It's so nice. But after 1 SINGLE SIP........... I slipped it. -.-" That was the only cup I have. Zzz.. On that they, I did recieved lotsa ang bao. From my aunts and uncles of cus. I dun wanna say how much I got in total, Ima make it confidencial. xD

Well, on the second day, we stayed at home. We prepared stuffs for our aunt's visit. My dad did all the cooking and the dishes were up to restraunt standards. When my relative came, they ate the dishes like free buffet. I only get the eat the left overs. -.-" But they're nice! :D

On the third day, we went to auntie Dorethy's house (It's Aunt Dorethy, not the Dorethy I worked with! ><) There isn't much.. Just Shark Fin soup that my dad helped them made and some Jolly Shandy(Lemon). (Am I a little too scartastic? :p) There're pizzas too, along with some snacks for us. They're really nice. xD

During the fourth day, I went to the dentist. To check out on my wisdom tooth. My parents took me there because they said that private dental clinic is way~ to expensive. The dentists check on my teeth, and said that I have holes in my teeth. (Omg! I'm going to miss my another tooth soon. ><) We paid $9 and because we just did a check up, no treatments. In the end, my mum said, "Let's go back to our private Dental Clinic. It's much convinent there." (Translated in English) Lawl~ -.-" Waste time and effort.

After going to the dental clinic, Zombie Yi(that's how Ming yi named himself today), Jinzo(Hong Jin) and I went to Ah Seng's(Yong Seng) house. We actually wanted to go there to bai nian. But after we reached there, their parents were oversea. (Can't get any ang bao, sobs. x( ) Rui Jie and mysterious girl(Forgot her name) was there too. So, they did some gambling. I didn't gamble. (I don't like gambling xD , Sorry guys.) Well, Ah Seng was their Chai Shen.. He lost more than 9 dollars.. probably 10+. He gave his 'ang baos' to Zombie Yi($5), Rui Jie($4), Me($0) (I didn't play :X),Mysterious Girl($?) and Hong Jin($-1) . Ah Seng is probably having nightmares now. xD What a 2009 for him! I wish him luck, truely. ):

Well.. that's all for my post today. Uhm.. I didn't post any pictures today. As you can see from above, I'm kinda busy these days. xD I'm ironing now so.. Sorry for not posting any picts! ><
Haha.. Happy Chinese New Year to you guys! Cya! (CNY ends at the 15th day of Lunar Calander)

An ambition to give up everything.
"Can I have your pencil?"
"NO! I'M NOT GIVING UP THIS PENCIL!"

Hi guys!
I'm sorry, there's no picts today. >< Shaawani wanted me to continue my old comic script.. Uhm.. maybe I'll do it when poly starts? I'm kinda busy these days. xD Whereas, doing comic blogging is different. Well.. I get to draw less to meet the prefection of the comic. xD As you can see(Comic blogging).. some verbal expression doesnt match their emotions, and some of the parts were pretty lame. So.. they're different. xD Well.. for Qixin, I'll post one picture tml. She wanted me to draw shuai ge.. (Ps: I couldn't draw someone like Kira(Death Note).. It's too hard. ><)

Okay, let's talk about today.
Ahem! Happy chinese new year to ALL! (Everyone had been using this common "Niu Year", so.. Ima do it my old fashion way xD). Anyway, I'm just back from my my grandma's house. (I've only one grandma left.. she's on my father's side.) We ate steam boat there. Well.. I couldn't get a chance to take some photo there.. cos something real chaotic happened. So this is what happened.. Everyone was there, waiting for Auntie Lee Lee(My dad's 2nd sis) to come for our New Year Lunch. She was in Thailand for the past 2 years, helping those needy children there. So.. We've been waiting for her arrival.When she arrived, instead of having a warm welcome, my aunt (Dad's big sis) gave her a cold shoulder. (She had some mental problems.)
"GET OUT! GET HOUSE OF MY HOUSE RIGHT AWAY!"
"Charle's family, you heard me! You're not welcome here!"
Everyone was stunned, even my Dad was. But.. my Dad went up to her big sis, trying to stop her from continue-ing her nuisence. Well.. In the end, auntie Lee Lee left. I spoke to her while she was there.. she sounded terribly sad. I really wish she'd be okay. On the another hand, I really wish my dad's big sis would go to the hospital one day.. to cure her illness. ):
It's like.. WHAT A NEW YEAR~ :/
I'll end my post here. Cya. Take care :D

(Just to clearify something. Ming Fan is shorter than Ming yi. :X)
Well.. Sorry guys, I really couldn't get time draw more. For Qixin, I couldn't draw an extra 'shuai ge' for you. Sorry! >< (Although I didn't draw Ming Fan pretty well.. But if u wan, u can treat the Ming Fan I drawn as shuai ge ba :X)

Anyway, I've just changed the song, so that my malay buddies wouldn't feel irritated by my racist-chinese songs.
Well..Happy Chinese New Year to ALL!
I gtg bb~ xD

Well.. Instead of saying "Hi guys!", "Yo guys!", or even "U sux!"(That's how heart warming gangsters can be nowadays. :S ), I'll try to use a new method of saying "Hi". So, there goes!

阿彌陀佛! ((:
Amitofo!
Uhm.. I'm not trying to say buddhism here, I CAME TO BLOG! So, don't worry. Let's ignore about the salutation. Let's begin!

Recently, I got my result back. It isn't amusing, neither it was amazing. I've got 24 for my L1R4. (I knew it wasn't that good.) Come to think about it, I'm kinda afraid. Unlike my previous post, I said that I totally had no pressure on getting whatever result I've got. But after the realising the preasure my parents gave, I knew that I'll have to go poly for sure. I'll be a piece of dead meat if I don't end up in one. I chose several courses, even if they don't fit me well, and insert them into my JAE. Nursing was one of the courses that I chose. Well.. not priority, but the last option, just to make sure I end one in one of the schools.

Today, I went to Tamasek Poly. I went there with Kai Jie and Andy(known as the late comers). I reached Tampinese MRT around 2.30pm and we met at 3.45pm.(Amazing!) We took a little shuttle bus toward Tamasek Poly. We had a warm welcome by those Tamasek students. Warm? Well, they just spammed us with 'knowledge' of their poly. On that spot, I was wondering.. "Were they paid for that?" -.- After awhile, they decided to take us to the 'little hut', aka the counciling room. To me, personally, I think that it's a brain-washing room. So, we'd got brain-washed by this kind-business-lady.

(You guys should be wondering, why is it a brain wash? The lecturer only say GOOD THINGS about that courses. They said aint no NOTHING about their bad points.)

We've got several brain washes until we meet up with this group of engineer brain-washers. Well since there's gaming in the course, we called up Z.H.U, aka the ba-ka Mingyi. Then we decided to join this course together. That's bacause the cut off point are probably near to our results. They actually introduced us a slip. They told us to write down our name so they would probably asign us in to the same course. Wow? But come to think about it, would we be able to get in the same school? I really wish so. I'm kinda worry right now. :/ Anyway, all the best to Yi, Andy and me! We went home after that. (I tried to cut it short cus I'm sleepy ><) I know.. this post isn't that detailised. Because I'm freaking tired right now. Sorry about that. I'm ending my post right here, right now. I wished you guys good luck! Take care! :D i wan go tamasek!

I've given up being a mangaka.
Everyone would be saying: "Why?" ; "Aren't that your dreams?" ; "You liked to draw, why give up?" ; "Where's my Mummy?!"(ignore that) and so on~
"Then what about the manga you promised to do for us?" For that, I'll complete the 1st chapter and stop, and I'll leave it to rust.
Back to the point, why did I gave up? Being a mangaka is not just being talented in drawing, it's more than being just idealistic. It's more than what you think. It's not easy to be a mangaka. If being a mangaka is so easy, there'll be more than 10 CREAPY manga artist in Singapore! And they'll be publishing cool arts instead of LOUSY arts for us to read! Then.. where are the artist that could draw great animes?! Dead! In their BORING office! What I'm trying to say here is - To be a mangaka, you don't only need talent, you need enterpreneurship. Japan is unlike Singapore, where you can find editors easily! In Singapore, where can you find one?! Being a mangaka, you'll have to risk, no matter you have talent or not. Even artist have their own risk of selling their own arts. Like what we Singaporeans say when we see their arts : "WTF?! Who would buy these shits for $1890?!"
Well, to be frank, I don't have any talent. I'm just better, but not talented. Some may like drawing, but may not always be talented in one. I don't want to be a GAMBLER(listed in Bakuman as the Mangaka riskers). Those who still don't understand, go read Bakuman! In Singapore, it'll be freaking hard to be a mangaka. I guess giving up is a good choice. In fact, even if I didn't give up, who would be my background artist? Who would be my editor? Who would read my 'name' for me? WHO?! SOMEONE IN SINGAPORE?! IS THERE?! I guess not. Being a mangaka is just a dream.
Talking about dreams, aren't being a mangaka being compartiable with being a cook or even a designer? YES! They lie on the same route. BUT! Not in Singapore! In Singapore, being a cook or even a designer, they're facilitated with their jobs. But for mangakas? NO! Singaporean mangakas are lacking of what we called : 'LOBANG'.
Personally, I can't affort to become a mangaka, even if I'm well facilitated. Why? It's my living enviroment. I'm currently not free. At all! I'm helping my mum and dad 6 days per week. I've only got sunday. Even on sundays, I've gotta help out my parents to keep my house neat and tidy. Where could i find time? Impossible.
Well.. If I got a chance, I'd like to try! Too bad, I've realised I've did too many errors on my current manga. The angles, the view, the picture, the character, the pen itself, the size of the image, the background. EVERYTHING is the problem. I still wished to be a mangaka. Afterall, it's just a dream.
If I'm surpose to be a mangaka at 30, my standards of drawings were only meant for mangakas at the age of 13. Mangakas at my age would draw even more detialized images, compared to mine.. it makes me a total failure.
I'm not trying to be emotional or something, I'm just stating the facts. Well all these are just my verbal thoughts and comments, maybe, someday, something would just hit me on my head and change my thought or so. Well.. thanks for the shattered dreams I guess..
What dissapointment!

Guess it's too long for a short story. I have to head to bed now. Thanks guys for reading this far. GL! Rmb to tag me! :D

I miss you.
Yet you're fading away..
But you are the only one now..
The chosen one.. who can create a story in my life..
I'm still waiting..
I wish to be with you..
):

Hi! It's new year today!! HAPPY NEW YEAHH!!!

Sorry guys. I've been out these days, and was busy drawing my own manga. In exchange, I'll post some images for you guy! ;D Yay~

And now! For Blogging! Two days ago, I went for this training course. It's about a personal hygiene. It's a one-day course. The reason for attending the course is to get their cert. so that we'll be able to get a job of food productions at high rates. It starts at 9am till 7pm. The lesson was made boring, somehow there was a little laughter here and there, cos our instructor likes to crap~ LOL~ Like in primary school, we get to learn about bacterial, hand washing, food contaminations and so on.. While listening in class, I got a little bored.. guess what? I spammed on my booklet! LOL! (Examples are below)

I'm trying to reduce the size being used for this post today, so.. I'm stopping my post here now, and the images are below. Sorry Candiie mei! Sorry for making you wait for so long, I just wannt be fair with everyone who wished to watch them 'first'. Sorry! ><

Looks like Marvel hero huh?
I thought so! LOL! xD

ALL OF THESE IN BLUE ARE DRAWN IN PEN FIRST!

I'll need some supporters and push me on so that I can keep on continue drawing. If there's no supporter pushing me, I'll lose motivation to draw. For those who supported me, thanks! :D