I've given up being a mangaka.
Everyone would be saying: "Why?" ; "Aren't that your dreams?" ; "You liked to draw, why give up?" ; "Where's my Mummy?!"(ignore that) and so on~
"Then what about the manga you promised to do for us?" For that, I'll complete the 1st chapter and stop, and I'll leave it to rust.
Back to the point, why did I gave up? Being a mangaka is not just being talented in drawing, it's more than being just idealistic. It's more than what you think. It's not easy to be a mangaka. If being a mangaka is so easy, there'll be more than 10 CREAPY manga artist in Singapore! And they'll be publishing cool arts instead of LOUSY arts for us to read! Then.. where are the artist that could draw great animes?! Dead! In their BORING office! What I'm trying to say here is - To be a mangaka, you don't only need talent, you need enterpreneurship. Japan is unlike Singapore, where you can find editors easily! In Singapore, where can you find one?! Being a mangaka, you'll have to risk, no matter you have talent or not. Even artist have their own risk of selling their own arts. Like what we Singaporeans say when we see their arts : "WTF?! Who would buy these shits for $1890?!"
Well, to be frank, I don't have any talent. I'm just better, but not talented. Some may like drawing, but may not always be talented in one. I don't want to be a GAMBLER(listed in Bakuman as the Mangaka riskers). Those who still don't understand, go read Bakuman! In Singapore, it'll be freaking hard to be a mangaka. I guess giving up is a good choice. In fact, even if I didn't give up, who would be my background artist? Who would be my editor? Who would read my 'name' for me? WHO?! SOMEONE IN SINGAPORE?! IS THERE?! I guess not. Being a mangaka is just a dream.
Talking about dreams, aren't being a mangaka being compartiable with being a cook or even a designer? YES! They lie on the same route. BUT! Not in Singapore! In Singapore, being a cook or even a designer, they're facilitated with their jobs. But for mangakas? NO! Singaporean mangakas are lacking of what we called : 'LOBANG'.
Personally, I can't affort to become a mangaka, even if I'm well facilitated. Why? It's my living enviroment. I'm currently not free. At all! I'm helping my mum and dad 6 days per week. I've only got sunday. Even on sundays, I've gotta help out my parents to keep my house neat and tidy. Where could i find time? Impossible.
Well.. If I got a chance, I'd like to try! Too bad, I've realised I've did too many errors on my current manga. The angles, the view, the picture, the character, the pen itself, the size of the image, the background. EVERYTHING is the problem. I still wished to be a mangaka. Afterall, it's just a dream.
If I'm surpose to be a mangaka at 30, my standards of drawings were only meant for mangakas at the age of 13. Mangakas at my age would draw even more detialized images, compared to mine.. it makes me a total failure.
I'm not trying to be emotional or something, I'm just stating the facts. Well all these are just my verbal thoughts and comments, maybe, someday, something would just hit me on my head and change my thought or so. Well.. thanks for the shattered dreams I guess..
What dissapointment!

Guess it's too long for a short story. I have to head to bed now. Thanks guys for reading this far. GL! Rmb to tag me! :D

I miss you.
Yet you're fading away..
But you are the only one now..
The chosen one.. who can create a story in my life..
I'm still waiting..
I wish to be with you..
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